My Unspeakable Stories

I struggled with insomnia and nightmares for 3 years...

While I can't publicly relayed what happened for me and my family, I can tell you what it did to me.

The sun would set and I would feel afraid... every night.

Memories, echo's and distortions would visit me in my sleep.

Every night I was scared not knowing what the night would reveal and what I would need to witness...

I was haunted by what I knew humans are capable of doing to one another. It was terrifying!

I hired professionals to support me, healers to guide me and mentors to expand my courage... and little bit by little bit - I kept facing whatever was revealed when I was awake or asleep!

And over that time, I kept the darkness I knew private and I continued to raise my children, serve my clients and tend to my heart!

There was no way out for me, no easy path... no short-cut and no one to come and lift me from what life had entrusted me with!

Over that 3 years sojourn, I noticed that women would enter my world carrying heavy burdens, unspeakable stories and fatigued hearts... I felt the power all around them that they could not yet see!

I felt grateful to hold space for them, hear them and guide them through their experiences... just as I had been led through mine.

And they kept coming...

Women who had been betrayed

Women who had lost loved ones they couldn't live without

Women who knew great loss, that brought them to their knee's

They kept finding me, without me even sharing what I was doing online! Suddenly as I was entrusted with the stories of other wise women who were called to lead in Business, I realized I could stay... I didn't wince, I didn't pity them or turn away when it got hard...

I could soften and surrender beside them and help them to face it!

And they would rise

They would find their voices

They would choose new directions

They would make the empowering self honoring decisions

They would let their hearts grief and let go

They found their conviction

They owned their speciality

They found their reasons to refuse to bow

They earnt more, because they refused to do more!

And they kept referring others to me - so I relented!

3 years of facing darkness day and night gave me stamina, deep connection and the skill-set of shadow navigation... I trusted life, and life showed me that this path is for me.

I belong here.